This workshop was a great initiativ from the lovely Leah and here is my first contribution.
Dear Body.
But my dear body, you could have been put together of less defect parts. I really try my best to take care of you, even if some people might not think that is the case. I dress warm in the winter so you won't get sick, I drink little alcohol and I don't smoke. I shower you at least once a day and I don't take you into dangerous situations if I can avoid it. Yes, I could have given you more sleep, eaten less sugar and fat, and taken you out exercising more often, it's just that both of us think it is far too nice to sit down with a good book and a chocolate or two till late at night.
When this is said, My Body: You are a bit hard to control at times. I know that I'm not making it easier by being so ditsy, we are probably of the most ditsiest teams ever with all the things that we have managed together. Bruises, scratches, falling on ice, tripping over things and so on. All from doing fun things and we don't remember that our coordination is of the best.
From childhood I've had asthma and this has cause me having more flus and lung infections than the normal person, but apart from this you have been healthy. The last six years I have been struggling more with my you my dear body. First it was my gallbladder that got so much pain since it was full of stones. It again led to a nasty pancreatitis that almost made you stop working completely. It took 10 days in hospital to get everything right in you. But we fought cause we were not ready to let go of the life yet and we won. We survived by being strong together and with help from the doctors.
After this we had to remove the gallbladder, but you were so good and recovered from the loss of one your good friends very quickly. It was so surprising and I was very surprised by your natural skill of healing yourself quickly. Didn't take long before I felt better!
You on the other hand are a funny creation that think it is funny to mess with my head. Literally cause the last couple of years you have been playing games with me that has not been so funny for me, although you have probably had a lot of fun playing these games with me. In March 2012 I suddenly lost some hearing on my left ear and got a ringing in the ear. We have been a lot to doctors and hospitals and done lots of tests, probably more games for you as we have had to do so much different movements and tests together to figure out what you are up to. The result of your silly games is that I have Meniers decease and I have to wear a hearing aid to save me from the hell of living with ringing in my ears 24/7 for the rest of my life. And my hearing you haven't given me back, so I'm a bit angry at you for that. I also struggle with my balance due to Meniers and have to do lots of exercises to try and trick my brain back to thinking that my balance organ is ok and not damaged like it is.
Then a couple of months ago you started to tell me that you were so tired or something is so wrong in you that I started fainting for no reason. I have been to the doctors and hospital and so far we haven't been able to find out why you are shutting down like this. So I won't write anymore about that for now, but I'm trying the best I can these days to find out what makes you so upset.
There has been other things in my life that makes me think that you are the most amazing creation. I used to sing in a band when I was younger and I always found it very fascinating how you manage to make me create music and sing the songs I have created. You manage to make me walk and talk and make amazing things with my hands.
The most amazing that you and have done together is that I have been so lucky to be pregnant. I loved being pregnant with you and you made me so happy being pregnant as you did not give me any big problems through the nine months you made my little baby ready to get out and a complete and healthy human. I have been wondering how you felt having another human being growing in you like a seed in a pot of soil, sharing the space in my tummy with all my bits and pieces inside me, but you are created in such a way so this is possible. It is one of the most amazing wonders of the world. Giving birth is probably some of the hardest you will ever have to do, but you did it so gracefully and even if I had to have a caesarian you healed so well and within two days after giving birth I was out shopping. I had a long birth as well, 36 hours, but still you were strong and gave me a great post pregnancy as well. Never felt better. I felt the best I have ever felt and you made me glow like never before. Now my little girl is a beautiful, strong and mature 16 year old young woman with an exciting life of her own.
I look forward to the future with you dear body and I can't wait to see what funny plans you have in wait for me. Will be an exciting travel!
Lots of hugs from your tenant
Thanks for doing this. Well, you've been through hell! I really hope the doctors can find out what's making you pass out and feel so tired all the time. You're doing really well to still be here and surviving when you've been through so many challenges. x x x
ReplyDeleteIt's been a challenge, but I'm still hopefull. :) I'm in love and that always helps. I have faith in my body and I'm proud of how it has been so strong and how much we have been through. :) It never stops to amaze me though. I love this challenge you have created Leah. It makes me more thankful for what I have got and also more conscious of it. xx
DeleteBeautifully written. Our bodies can do fantastic things and it's sad we criticise merely on appearance instead of appreciating them for all they can do.
ReplyDeleteThank you Nicole. Exactly. We takes it for granted sometimes, but we just have to stop for a second and thank it for all the good things it can do and not only how it looks. xx
DeleteI'm completing this workshop with you and I applaud your strength! You have really been through a lot, but it just shows how strong and determined you and your body are. I hope the doctors figure out the fainting spells. I look forward to reading more from you!
ReplyDeleteHow exciting. I will go and take a look later. :) Thank you for the good words. It is very appreciated. I try to be strong. I feel very thankful for all the good things I have in my life and that makes me strong. I hope they can find out what is wrong too cause it takes everything out of me. xx
DeleteAm loving this challenge and can't wait for the next one. I really hope they can find out what is wrong, nothing worse not knowing what is wrong. Your body has been through a lot, hope it settles a little for you over the next few years, so you can enjoy it again :)
ReplyDeleteI love it too. It is such a great eye opener and makes me be thankful for all the hard work my body does for me. Just something as simple as writing this is something we take for granted. I truly appreciate it and lovely to hear from you. xx
DeleteWhat a beautiful letter! I hope they find out what is making you faint! But such a wonderful letter it really reminded me how amazing our bodies are x
ReplyDeleteThanks Vicky Sweety. It was so much fun writing it too. And sometimes we just have to stop and appreciate all the good things our bodies does. And I love all the great people I have met through all this. xx
DeleteI LOVED this open letter to your wonderful, naughty body. So lovely. Yes you have struggles but look how well you are coping. I love that babies have grown in us too. It still amazes me that we can do it. xx
ReplyDeleteThanks a lot dear. It means a lot to me that you like it. Everyone has different struggles, but sometimes we have to take a moment to think about how wonderful it is at the same time. Yes, it is amazing how we can grow a life in us.. beyond my comprehension. xx
DeleteThanks for giving this insight in your relationship with your body. Great letter. Hope, you'll find what you looking for through this workshop. Looking forward to read more lovely posts from you. *hug*
ReplyDeleteHow was it yesterday, dear? Hope they haven’t found something bad.
♡ Mel xoxo
Thanks lovely. It was fun, but challenging to write it, but it made me more conscious. :) I have already found something through this workshop. It is amazing how much you can learn about yourself just by writing a post. It is fun,
DeleteHave texted you about the tests dear. xx :)
Omygosh I loved this, I like how your a positive person and I'm so glad that I found another blogger who can help build my confidence too! Your still smiling despite the challenges you have had. Goodluck with the results xo
ReplyDeleteAww thanks a lot my dear sweet friend. I try to be as positive as I can be. Life can be a struggle, but sometimes we just have to take a break and look at what an amazing machine we live in and all the lovely things it can do. :) I always smile and will never stop smiling. :) xx
DeleteWell done on this letter hun. Like can be CRAP sometimes but this shows you can get through it and be as wonderful as you are. x
ReplyDeleteThanks a lot Hollie. :) Awww thanks for your sweet words. I just try and be myself and smile. A smile makes every day automatically better. :) xx
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